Sunday, February 24, 2013

Desperation as an Act of Worship

Scott Olson, President of International Teams USA, sent out an email this week that sparked a few neurons in my brain. Unfortunately, in my case, that can be dangerous. In his message, Scott shared some thoughts about the woman in Matthew 9 who reached out to "touch the hem of (Jesus') cloak." His first point - and admittedly I had a hard time getting past it - was that desperation can be turned into an act of worship when we reach out to Jesus.

Desperation is not usually seen as a desirable state of being. I doubt many of us wake up in the morning thinking, "I hope I am desperate today." Most people want to be happy, fulfilled, satisfied or, even, "self-actualized" - if they have read too much Abraham Maslow. Beggars are desperate. People with stage IV cancer can be desperate. However, successful people are, well, successful -  never desperate.

Still, there is something about desperation that seems to attract God.

Leonard Ravenhill wrote, "Now I say very often - and people don't like it - that God doesn't answer prayer. He answers desperate prayer! Your prayer life denotes how much you depend on your own ability, and how much you really believe in your heart when you sing, 'Nothing in my hands I bring, simply to Thy cross I cling...'"

Ravenhill's statement made me think (I told you the neurons started firing!) of James 5:16 and 17, "The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. Elijah was a human being, even as we are. He prayed earnestly... " (NIV) This chapter mentions serious life situations: rotting wealth, suffering, troubles, sickness, sin, and "wandering from the truth." Any one of these could produce genuine desperation in our souls.

Some people believe these verses mean, "If I pray with enough intensity or hard enough and long enough, then God just has to answer my prayers." However, I wonder if it doesn't really mean our prayers need to be empowered by God. Prayers become effective and strong because they are energized by God and not simply by our limited human endurance.

Still, the idea of desperate prayer keeps rattling around in my head.

Abraham must have been praying "desperately-multiplied-several-times-over" as he approached that hill in Moriah with Isaac (Genesis 22). Hannah's prayer in 1 Samuel 1:10 always comes to mind when I think of desperate prayer. In Psalm 38 we see David's desperation when faced with his own sinfulness and the results of those sins. The entire church gathered to pray desperately in Acts 12:5. James had already been beheaded. It looked like Peter was going to meet the same fate. Those early disciples needed God to show up in a big way.
I wake up desperate some mornings. I want Su to be better. There are tremendous needs in our ministry. Problems are brewing to which I have no solutions. Ultimately, I am faced with my own humanity.
To borrow heavily from The Shawshank Redemption: On those kind of desperate mornings I certainly hope that Mr. Ravenhill was right. I hope that my reaching out is an act of worship. I hope that my weak neurons can still be empowered by All-Mighty God.

I hope.

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